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Category: Life

Apr 14 2017

Why I am passionate about community activism

NOTE: This post needs edited.  If you would like to be an editor, please send me a message or an email at greg@6r3g.net.  Thank you!

 

I’ve always believed that the value of family is fundamental.  That’s what love is.  Family.  A fundamental unity or connection.  That is the most important thing to me.  FAMILY IS EVERYTHING!  That’s why love is God.  I am struggling to write this letter explaining my passion and dedication to community activism because it literally means EVERYTHING to me.  It is my core purpose in life– seeking solutions for the challenges we face and implementing change to lessen the pain and challenge involved in growing up and becoming independent.  I’ve felt very ashamed, worthless, and alone throughout most of my life.  It began in my early childhood when my family would argue and I began feeling different.  I remember when I was about 11 or 12 years old telling my mom that I felt like an alien trapped in a humans body.  That was the only way I knew to express my sense of disconnection.  I realize now that it was a result of language and judgement.

Early on, I had trouble feeling like I could truly express myself using words.  A hug was more satisfying and I loved sitting next to my mom for hours and hanging out or talking or watching tv.  I felt most comfortable sleeping in her bed with her on nights while my fther was out of town working.  He is an accounting professor with university and while we lived in Austin, he took a position at the University of Illinois.  He commuted back and forth from Sunday through Thursday.  I missed him during that time because I loved working on projects with my dad.  I loved it when he’d teach me things and we’d play games together.  It was hard when he was away more than half the time.

I like to question things and learn how they work and I don’t mind taking risks– I feel they are critical for a person to actually live.  I am curious by nature and I believe curiosity and creativity go hand in hand.  I want to understand how things work and why.  I am a compassionate person and my empathy is all-consuming.  The work that I do often brings me to tears as I want to be successful and use my experience to prevent anyone else from having to go through what my family and I have.  It’s unnecessary suffering

My greatest desire is to feel united with all else.  Starting with my mom, I’ve felt a deeply profound sense of connection or entanglement with others.  A union which has become separated and yearns to become whole again.  A lot of it has to do with the words we say and judgements we make.  As an adolescent, I really began questioning what is consciousness.  How does it interface with physical reality, or the body, and is it consistent for everyone?  I became intrigued by things like quantum mechanics and relativity, philosophy, cognitive science and anthropology.  The list goes on and I felt like every topic had a set of clues to learn from and give a better understanding of myself and the universe– or God if you choose to call it that.  I love looking at the beauty in nature and the stars…

When I was 13, I started smoking pot and I was intrigued with its ability to change my consciousness.  I had lost interest in Christianity, and sought truth through nature and science,  Not long after that I tried LSD and I liked that it allowed me just to laugh at myself rather than being so critical all the time like I had learned from my teachers and my parents.  Authority figures always seemed so judgemental of the weird eccentric style I felt comfortable expressing myself with.  I love bright colors and weird music and I’ve always felt more connection to others by appreciating our differences.  I see beauty in flaws.  My uniqueness made me feel valuable.  While my family had always wanted me to be and act normal, I  always knew I was different and it seemed wrong to not acknowledge that.  Conflict seemed to grow and grow all based around judgements and beliefs and I always associated my struggle with being myself and the approval of my parents.  Much of it was based on my drug use– My mom and dad didn’t want me to use drugs because they’re illegal.  It seemed so silly and arbitrary to discriminate this one plant because it altered perception.  Teachers alter perception.  Plus, it didn’t make me feel lazy like some people said.  I felt different, but in a good way– more creative, fresh ideas and novelty.

I liked to goof around, and test things out, investigate the source of things and explore, and be creative… so at 13, I was trying to understand “who am I” when I was introduced to marijuana.

Here is a PLANT that is ILLEGAL but WHY?  I’m curious! 🙂 It made me feel different and allowed me to think outside of the beliefs, or limits, my parents had instilled in me.  That had value to me, meanwhile my dad told me money doesn’t grow on trees and I need to get a job.  I needed money to buy pot and so I did what Teddy Roosevelt said to do- “Do what you can, with what you have, where you are.” -TDR
Before long, I was printing fake money and trading it for pot.  It seemed so simple and harmless; $20,000 later and the secret service came knocking.  They confiscated my father’s computer and I never again felt like I belonged to this society.  I withdrew more and more over the next several years; finding myself in increasing trouble and powerless, I sought other ways of life and became interested in studying the diverse cultures of the world.
I dislike conflict and I began feeling like I was in a battle with the world.  My perception of humans became very dualistic and it seemed to me(based on my relationship with my parents) that conflict was the fundamental aspect of every relationship.  I found it easier to isolate and before long, heroin became my source of relief.
By 19, I had found opiates and heroin.  I had lost all respect and concern for myself and was stealing to support my habit.  That increased my level of shame and guilt and this became a vicious cycle.  Before I was 20 years old, I had lost my sense of connection to the people I needed most and had increasing trouble with the law.  I didn’t care about anything because I didn’t care about myself.  I accepted that I would never be ‘normal’ and this allowed me to justify they things I was doing.  I was caught entering people’s homes in the night looking for small things to steal to support my habit.  I was terrified of withdrawal and avoided it at all costs.  I wanted comfort and could find that nowhere else than the pain killing effects of opiates.
I spent those 2.5 years in prison reading and studying algebra and calculus.  I found a job working for the college coordinator and began tutoring students preparing for the GED and teaching a small math class.  I felt appreciated for the first tome and that was amazing.  I knew I had a mission to accomplish by sharing my pain and challenges with the world.  My strongest desire is to help people and I felt like none of my experiences were for waste.  My own pain and struggle seemed the best experiences I could get.  If only change were as easy as I had hoped.
I struggled with heroin for about 10 years before I finally found the strength to quit.  I tried everything, rehab, AA, NA, counseling, anti-depressants– I just could find no relief and my life was a constant battle.  I learned to hate myself and through my process of growth that has occurred since I hit my bottom, I finally was able to begin accepting myself and my past choices.  I learned to forgive myself, and to love myself.  My parents had always said they loved me, yet I felt constant judgement and disappointment from them.  I believe love is unconditional and when I was finally able to forgive myself and accept myself, I knew it was my duty to use all of my pain and experience to help others struggling with those same issues.  I wanted to prevent anyone from having to feel so alone and worthless and empty.  I felt by writing a memoir, I could share my story.  I had been inspired and encouraged by reading memoirs of others who had gotten through addiction.  I had spent my life feeling hopeless so this came as a major relief.
I still had many years of pain and sometimes overwhelming challenges.  Those old feelings can sometimes resurface and drag me down but I have grown so much, I don’t give up when something is important to me.  I accepted that I was here to change how our culture deals with and drug use/abuse and crime.  My parents think I’m crazy and I wish I could feel like we are on the same team, but I sometimes wonder if that is possible.  I used to feel I was on a team by myself.  Finding other people with the same level of dedication to seeking solutions for the challenges we undergo.  I realized challenge as a path to growth and found value in it.  As I learned to love and accept myself, I felt that love and acceptance for everything.  I had truly found my purpose and joined an organization of people much like me who have found the greatest satisfaction in life is helping others and offering my experience so that hopefully no other child has to experience that level of pain and isolation.
I began writing a memoir and journaling.  This helped me make sense of much of my thoughts and experiences and as I began sharing my writings with others, I was surprised how many people identified with those same thoughts and feelings that has so severely crippled me.  My insights seemed to assist others in their process and I had my first sense of achievement.  I’ve met some of the most amazing snd inspiring people through this process and I’ve found so much hope.
I used to lie about so much because I was ashamed or felt hopeless.  I decided those lies were only hurting myself.  I had to find the strength to let go of my guilt and shame so that I can freely express my past without judgement.  I have no greater purpose in life and I am honored and humbled to have the opportunity.

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Jun 06 2015

The United States of Lies and Brainwashing

93gregory19I’ve decided it is harmful to promote activities that utilize federal reserve notes as ‘value’ because it contributes to a system harming the planet and causing people to become fixated on a delusion similar to the game Monopoly. It is only paper. An apple is not “worth” any amount of ‘money’ based on God… only on human beliefs or delusions.
Real money is not printed by the Federal Reserve and people who use that paper fake money are delusional and perpetuating a lie. That paper is not actually worth anything. It is a lie. Did you think God made it or it was somehow here 300 years ago?
200 years ago it didn’t even exist and when you and I were 2 years old, we had no concept of ‘money’ only reality without lies embedded about what is ‘valuable’. The government has you fooled into believing there is value in this ‘dollar’.
Before ‘money’ existed, Santa was not necessary for Jesus in the Bible but why do “Christians’ think it is so great to lie to their kids about fake characters like the Easter bunny or Santa Claus? Are they in the bible or just added as helpful to deceive people and keep them gullible?
Was it necessary to pay bills or rent before ‘money? … or are those are constructs founded on $? Do you think the fines your court system implements are based on Gods teachings? Or a hoax based on someone’s agenda?
I am a Federal Reserve Note. I have ‘value’ based on brainwashing techniques.
Did you think the native Americans had to pay for things with Federal Reserve Notes? Is That a bank charging interest on the resources it is raping from nature? Who gave them nature?
Maybe George Bush or George HW Bush or Prescott Bush or some other burning bushes will help you like it did Moses.
Maybe it is George Bush or Prescott Bush or George HW Bush or another bush outside or Moses’ burning bush or even Obamacare. Maybe Iraq could help us not be terrorists. We could be bushes. Maybe Santa Claus. .. Maybe Saddam Hussein or Libya even… Maybe oil companies or pharmaceuticals…
Maybe federal reserve notes or the United States of Lies… or we could liberate Afghanistan. Maybe the interest rates or the ‘laws’ which some dude wrote based on an agenda.
Maybe a judge whose job it is to wear a robe and read bullshit statutes based on bullshit. And enforce those pieces of paper because of democracy. Maybe the founding fathers could dump out England’s tea. It may be a bush…
Maybe the native americans or the Salem witches or the US constitution or the bullshit history American children read from a book and accepted without question offer clues. Have you checked the printer it was printed on? Was fiat currency involved? Maybe nature could offer some clues. .. there is a bunch of bushes we can ask.

Maybe ask Jesus or your church or even Santa or another ‘authority figure’. Maybe democracy is fake as shit and you were fooled? Ask a president. How about Obamacare? Or the Bushes…
No need to win the election if you’re named George Bush. Your brother is governor of Florida!!! And your father used to be president AND head of the CIA. Hell, Prescott Bush was a fucking Nazi! Need proof? Here is one of MANY sources not owned by a corporation, the elite bankers, oil companies, or pharmaceutical companies. They are working for ‘profit’ and not anyone’s wellbeing. http://www.theguardian.com/world/…/sep/25/usa.secondworldwar

Maybe Hitler would answer your questions… He was a Christian too so you might ask a Jew??? You may also gas a Jew and if you would rather liberate Afghanistan or even Iraq because of WMD, other lies or BS maybe that would help. Ooh, 9/11??? Must have been the 19 scapegoats the media fed you lies about. Maybe some bushes were involved? You think maybe? Maybe Obama? Santa? Or some other fantasy. History could be rewritten and the history books you were taught from may not be accurate. Were you there to confirm or did the book delude you? Maybe a ‘state’ university which didn’t exist except for a bunch of idiots who rebelled against an overzealous monarchy and started their own bullshit government and brainwashed a bunch of people into believing God put it there. It was a fabrication that some men created. It is a lie. Would their outdated opinion be up for review? Did the IRS get authority from nature? Or God? Why should THEY get to tax us and not the other way around? I laugh at fake bullshit statutes which some idiot with an agenda wrote up and an idiot in a black robe with a hammer to pound on his desk has God’s authority to make decisions based on bullshit. Nature and the indigenous people who were here before your ancestors pillaged and claimed ownership of this land think your laws don’t matter. Neither do I. I think the Federal Reserve is counterfeiting something and you have become deluded into believing those paper dollars will be accepted by anyone except brainwashed people who forgot that nature doesn’t charge interest.

Ask your son. Ask the Sun. Ask Jesus, ‘God’s’ son. Or have you nailed up the cross yet? Ask Santa Claus!

Fantasy world? Maybe if I were named Tree or Rock you would elect me? How about Bush? Could you resist? That bullshit sounded pretty real but that whole family is almost invisible what with it being so bushy. Maybe Iraq and the WMD or Afghanistan or any other country you were convinced was evil because of the Bushes lies. Have you been there to see for yourself or did you forget that the TV is not reality? Reality TV??? The Native Americans thought their reality was true. Maybe tv would make it more authentic with the special effects.

Did you know that Obama is related to the Bushes? When did the Bush family become king? Did their birth include more value than yours or mine? Are they able to lie? That family is like a magic family! Maybe Moses would burn the bushes. Ohh, maybe Jesus is related to the Bushes. Skull and Bones is receiving Obamacare!!!! Yale University must be grand! Do you think the skull or bones represent something symbolic? Maybe ask a Freemason!!! Or a Bush or other President!!! Do you know the Rockefeller’s? How about them? Maybe Hollywood and the props and elaborate storylines and special effects produced in movies is more or less real than the bullshit media which a corporation owns. Would some news corporation or government which has a domestic spying campaign and launches wars on everything including nature and ‘terrorists’ based on a Bush’s fantasy world. Fake news media may tell you something other than reality? Would it help you to celebrate thanksgiving and pretend that being gluttonous is like expressing your gratitude for the Earth providing you with things to eat. Did you thank the Native Americans or is being selfish and greedy, focused on the Federal Reserve Notes you were taught had value because of atomic bombs was actually inflationary? Wonder were the ‘money’ generated by inflation and interest rates comes from? Who authorized anyone to acquire it in the first place? Do we all agree to how much gets printed or some assholes who run a bank? Have you checked that out? Maybe the Salem witches will answer or the liberated people of Iraq or Afganistan? Should we launch another war based on something your news made up or do you automatically accept what the TV tell you?

Maybe its the media or some tv show called the News. Maybe your choices have been infiltrated and the CIA stole your reality in order to brainwash you. It could be MK ULTRA. Maybe your son was able to see through those stories and break free from the mental enslavement it has caused. Maybe you should doublecheck with something that is based in truth and not printed on a printing press. Does God have credit or a checking account? maybe God would hire me to do some thing and pay me in Monoloply money or Euros because the US dollar is not based on anything of actual value. Have you been confused because of an elaborate hoax? Or did God say its ok?

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Jan 31 2013

Authority

I’ve always questioned authority and the conventions of society to the extent that upon extreme analysis and criticism, many aspects seem pointless and arbitrary.  I certainly recognize the importance of having and following rules and I understand the significance of conformity, but my general viewpoint on these things is very objective in that regard.  Rather than feeling a part of the system of conventions, I feel more like an outside observer, further promoting my perception of analysis.

I don’t recognize this tendencies a bad thing in general, although it has caused me some difficulty in understanding and adopting to.  Now that I’m moving past the stage of rebellion that it has caused, I see many benefits.  What I’m understanding further is the underlying cause of this tendency, as well as how I can utilize all the aspects of my personality as an asset rather than a liability.
I do believe that the better I am able to interact and communicate with others the more I will be able to understand and express myself.  That is something that is extremely important in my life at this point.  I know that it has often been my lack of good communication that has gotten me into trouble in the past and possibly contributed to my critique of authority, and aspects of society that so many people seem to take for granted.  In this regard I believe the more I communicate, the more I grow.
I spent the majority of my life considering who I am, the nature of my self identity.  When I was young, until about age 13, I understood my identity in terms of my mom and dad.  Both of my parents are educators, my mother at the elementary level, and my dad at the collegiate level, so I highly identified with education.  Until the age of 13, I had adopted many of the values of my parents, things like using reason and compassion, being tolerant, considerate of others, and acting with integrity and self-discipline.
Throughout my adolescence, my identity was shaped and reshaped by the friends I hung around with, and more fundamentally by the culture at large.  As I rebelled against authority, I developed a sense of ego, believing I needed to gain acceptance by being and doing things that attracted attention.  This led me down a path of insolence and misbehavior, causing me to get into trouble and seek deep within myself for answers…

 

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Dec 01 2012

Introspection for the next baktun

 

I love to laugh at myself and for me, it is necessary.  Part of my healing.  The most challenging opponent to meditation , creative production, and writing is allowing myself to step away from the drama and activity that we experience as our daily life.  Decisive action with integrity is essential to acheiving our goals.

 

Our purpose here is not as that of seekers.  We already have the answers. Our purpose is implementation and application.

 

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Nov 02 2012

Life’s Lessons

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Oct 15 2012

uh oh.. .. . .mercury retrograde

they say to err is human... wtf is an err?
just more evidence that humans are silly!

tongue

 
err... um.,. oopps.

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k . 0 . p p = / \]]\er/[[/\ = q q . 0 . ok

=0 ura p-br@n3! 
idaho and uranus

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Oct 02 2012

Rise with love! <3

Just in case you have been under a rock the last year, there is a revolution happening, right in your back yard, right NOW!

For far too long you have sat at your computer screen, in front of your TV and on your cell phone watching, waiting and complaining for change. I say YOU because I speak to the 99% of you who have been captivated by Fear.

There are some however, with a Warrior’s heart. We are the Few. We chose to come here for the Many. But we can not do it alone. The time has come my beautiful Human, my Brother and Sister in Love, to Rise.  It is time for the Few to become the many so the Warrior may lay down her sword.

No longer can you stand by while our children go hungry and our Mothers grow weary and sick. No longer can you stand by while your brothers and sisters loose their homes, their jobs and their joy. No longer can you stand by while the dark forces would train our children to be another generation of robots via our public education system. No longer can you stand by while we are poisoned, made sick and sterile by our food source. No longer can you stand by while our Mother Earth is raped and murdered for greed and ignorance.

“But what can I do?” you say? “What power do I have?”
I say RISE! RISE child of light, Warrior of the Heart, get off of your knees and take your power back! This is the only way we are going to obtain that place and space where a Warrior may lay down her shield and Love. Not until the dark forces, which would enslave us, have been stripped of the power you think they took from you can we live in Peace and Freedom! Not until we RISE! TOGETHER!

Here’s a pretty darn good way to start with the stripping:

Stop and think, how do you support the banking system?
Do you pay a mortgage or other lie with your pieces of paper?
(You know, the ones rewarded to you for your slave labor that have NO value.)

Credit cards?
Loans?
STOP PAYING THEM!

Do you have children in public school?
STOP SENDING THEM!

Do you support big business like Wal-Mart?
STOP SHOPPING!

I know what this sounds like to you and I agree, it is drastic. I began a slow progression into this process a few years ago, but as time begins to collapse, there is no time to “prepare to prepare”. The Time is NOW.
I can hear some of you….“But I have to work. I have to send my child to school. I have to pay for shelter. I have to…yadda yadda yadda…”  LIES! They are all LIES you have been convinced of by those who would oppress Humanity to keep you sedated and on the wheel that feeds their greedy, grossly overstuffed bellies while yours goes hungry. They have made you lazy in your mind and numb in your heart.
“Do what you can with what you have, where you are.” Theodore Rosevelt.

Yes, this means you are going to have to grow your own food, educate your own child, and create your own power. Yes, this means things may be a little rough for a little while. YES, you ARE going to have to get off of your recliner and out of the air conditioning! But the most important ingredient here is to Trust one another. To Love one another. To work TOGETHER, AS ONE! No longer will you be able to hide away in your home and consider yourself separate from the masses, for you are the masses. The time has come for you to get up, go out and hug your neighbor. How are they struggling? What can you do to help? This is the only way we are going to get through these times alive. We have to do it Together. The entire ideal of having to FIGHT one another to be safe and provided for is fast being thrown out the window, join in and find Joy!

The method? The more we RAISE the vibration of our Self, the Higher Gia will vibrate  and the faster peace, Love and abundance for All beings will be a reality for the masses. The secret to raising your vibration? Above all things, Love. Above all else, Love. Love yourself. Love Life in all her forms. Love one another!

In times past this has indeed been a Warriors path, people have been afraid of Love for so long, and Fear makes sane people do crazy things. But the tides are shifting. It is time for us to lay down the swords, lay down the judgment and Fear and just Love.

This November is peaceful non compliance month. To take part all you need do is simply support your Brothers and Sisters who have already made a stand and cease any payment to the banking systems. There are many other ways you can support the peaceful call for change, how ever supporting the dead horse that would enslave you is like adding another link in the chains that would bind us all. Take back your Freedom, your health and your JOY! Let us Rise. Together. In Love.

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Aug 30 2012

Facebook Therapist Tip #1: Drama

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Aug 24 2012

Running

Realize that life moves really fast
My best advice is to treat each day like your last
Time is precious but can seem like a foe
It’s important to remember what matters most

Don’t forget the things worth living for
Stand up when something’s worth dying for
Life’s full of colors and sensory gifts
Just don’t forget what matters most!
♥ 6r3g =)
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